Somewhere between kindergarten and high school, we begin to believe the idiom, “Curiosity killed the cat.” We lose our sense of wonder. We go from asking “why” to everyone we encounter, and instead, try to figure it out ourselves. We don’t stop and marvel over an ant carrying a crumb of food 10 times bigger than itself or stop and look for the rainbow during the sun-drenched rain. We become self-reliant in every aspect of our lives including our relationship with God. Our culture prizes independence and self-sufficiency; the more we can do for ourselves, the better. But, that is not what God wants for us. God wants us to come to him with any and all of our questions.
Like a child in awe of the beetle under the rock, God wants us to come to him. He wants us to marvel at his creation and come to him when our lives just don’t seem to make sense. He wants us to ask him the big questions and even the small ones. He wants us to be curious about the things that puzzle us and allow our hearts to be open and vulnerable before him. Nicodemus was beginning to understand this when he came to Jesus. He was a teacher of the law, an expert on all things of God up until this point, yet Jesus puzzled him. This uneducated man from Galilee was saying things about God that made no sense to his educated mind. His soul was being stirred and his intellect challenged in new ways. He was curious and was willing to risk everything to find out if Jesus could answer his questions.
However, Nicodemus got stuck. He was so immersed in this natural world that he couldn’t see through the physical to the spiritual. This man, who was supposed to believe in a spiritual God, couldn’t see past the confines of the world he was living in. But he still came to Jesus and asked for answers. He still opened himself up before Jesus and sought the truth. He didn’t demand that Jesus prove that he was God, he had a little bit of faith and then allowed that faith to open him to ask more meaningful questions. When we come before God, it should be with an open heart, a questioning heart. God is not afraid of our questions. He allows us to ask the things that keep us up at night and will answer them when we sincerely seek him.
John 3:3-4, 9 (New Living Translation)
3Jesus replied, “I tell you the truth, unless you are born again, you cannot see the Kingdom of God.” 4“What do you mean?” exclaimed Nicodemus. “How can an old man go back into his mother’s womb and be born again?”… 9”How are these things possible?” Nicodemus asked.
Nicodemus is genuinely curious about the things Jesus is telling him. He wanted to understand, but what is holding him back?
What are the questions that you have for God that you are afraid to ask?
Allow yourself time this week to be curious about the things God has made. Look at the world around you and marvel at the beauty of a single flower. Allow yourself to be open and vulnerable before God. Search your heart and ask him the questions that keep you up at night.
God, thank you that you are not silent. Thank you that you want us to come before you with our questions and concerns. Speak to our hearts and provide our souls with the answers we seek. Remind us that you are not afraid of our questions and desire to communicate with us no matter what our hearts are asking. Allow us to see and appreciate the wonder you have placed all around us. Amen.